As you might have noticed, I haven’t posted much lately. I’ve really found myself struggling with my mood lately and so it is hard to post when I feel I’ll just be complaining. We’ve finally had a couple days of sunshine, and I think that has helped a little. I’m still trying to get a handle on taking my medicine like I need to be. Hopefully if I get back up to the right dose, but can find a way to take it without keeping me up at night, I will start feeling better.
Earlier in the week I was feeling completely defeated after realizing that a patch of scalp I thought was covered, wasn’t. I thought I was okay at work, and yet it had probably been showing the whole time. Ugh. That got me really down. I think that I found a way to fix it though. I just have to brush the hair over when wet, clip it with some gel in it, and then take the clip out once it is dry. That seems to help some. But my pulling is pretty bad right now, and because of my cruddy mood, I haven’t felt like fighting urges at all. It just seems a lost cause at this point. That gets me even more down. I’m just trying to avoid any trance like pulling and pity parties. If I can avoid those, then I can still function pretty well.
Lastly, I heard about this conference today. I would love to attend it, since it is only a few hours away from home. It’s awfully expensive though (more than my professional conferences!) and I couldn’t write it off as a business expense like my music therapy conferences. I already have to be in Chicago at the beginning of April, so I just don’t know. Is anyone else going?
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