Can we just pretend the last two days didn’t happen? Last night we ripped out most of a wall to fix the leak in the shower and treated a bunch of mildew too. My dad really did most of the work, but it is disheartening to see a hole rather than a wall when I walk down the hallway.
I have done a fair job of fighting urges and using tools the past couple of days. This evening is another story. I’m out of control. Sitting & working at the computer is a horrible trigger for me, and it is what I need to be doing right now. That and reading. Time to go find a good hat and try to get my brain to switch into a different mode. I’m realizing that I most need fidget toys at the computer although using them while typing could be tricky. Not that I’m getting much typing done if my hand is in my hair anyway.
I promise I will keep trying and hopefully tomorrow will be better. Two months of this challenge is feeling really long right about now.
Sorry to hear about all the current stress that’s causing such powerful urges. Know that we’ve all been in the same boat at times, super stressed out, not wanting to pull but struggling to find relief. I hope blogging is therapeutic in some way. Hang in there as best you can.