Wow, its been two months since my last post. Sorry everyone. That has to be a new record. I guess I haven’t felt too inspired lately, but on the off chance I do have any regular readers, I feel bad for disappearing on you.
It’s cold here and I’m tired of snow and boots and layers of coats, scarves, & mittens. My mood has been better than most winters, but I just feel blah. Add to that some unusual life events, and I’ve just been proccupied.
My pulling isn’t horrible, but it isn’t very good either. I’m just going day by day and trying not to let the pulling stress me out. I’d like to have long hair. I’d like to have at least a full head of hair, but I just can’t bring myself to care too much right now. I have very little will power since about mid-Jan so that doesn’t help either. More important than even my pulling is eating right (since that affects how my whole body/mood function) but I can’t make myself stick to my restrictions. So that will be battle #1. Once we get some warm sunny days and I start craving fruit, smoothies, & salad, it should get a whole lot easier again.
In the meantime, I’m trying to decide whether or not to send a proposal to my national professional association about Trich/BFRB’s and Music Therapy which would include my experiences working at the Trich Retreat for TLC last September. I want to do it, and I have until April 10 to get everything submitted. But basically I have to put together the whole presentation in order to submit my “proposal.” If they don’t accept me to present, then its lots of wasted time & effort (and probably pulling as I try to get powerpoint put together). I also have this inferiority complex where my one experience doing MT with TTM doesn’t feel like much expertise so I wonder if I have a right to present. But really what I want to do is put the word out to this arena of therapists that there’s a disorder out there that none of us are taught about in school (or at least miseducated about, I think it might have been mentioned in my Abnormal Psych class and I had felt the need to correct the prof!). I’ve seen quite a few of my clients with TTM type behaviors and I know what I’m looking at. How many other MT’s do?
So, I ponder…
If you’re still out there and reading, please let me know. I definitely post more when I have comments to answer!
I’m still here.