My head is itching like crazy and I have pulled a little recently, but for the most part, this weekend has gone REALLY well. It could be the new homeopathic. It could be that I’m at my parents’ rather than my own house. It could be some funky swing in my body chemistry. Whatever it is, I’m glad for it. My pulling has slowed for the past couple of days, as have my other anxious type behaviors. I’m still having a really hard time not picking at my shoulders. Tonight I got a ton of mosquito bites too, so that really doesn’t help keep my hands away!!
In a backwards way, my success could be attributed to a proactive move I made for if I keep pulling until all of my hair is gone. I found out that the owner at a local salon does wig consultations and styling for cancer patients. I wrote to her asking if she’d be willing to help me out with mine since they’re all looking aged (luckily from sitting in a cabinet for a year rather than because I’ve been wearing them). She trimmed them up and did some re-shaping and they look lots better. It’s a lot easier to feel comfortable and confident while wearing them if they actually seem flattering. Funny how that works.
My goal still is to go wig free and grow my hair out for as long as I can. However, now I have wigs I like, which I can throw on if I need an extra barrier, if I want to dress up a little, or if I just need a change. I hope to be able to wear them for “fun” and hold them in a positive light. If I have to start wearing one full time again, I know it is going to become a drag quickly. But at least I will like my choices, instead of choosing the lesser evil.
I’ll post pictures soon.
