You pullers know all about it. One day you do really well and the next day, things are bad again. It gets to be a frustrating circle. One day it seems easy to not pull and you’re thinking “if it stays like this it should be so easy to be pull free.” But then the next day you wake up and it isn’t easy anymore. Either you are constantly resisting an urge, or you don’t even recognize the urge and are just pulling like mad.
Yesterday I did really good. The CD player in my car started working again, so I did my behavior mod. with my book on tape. It worked really well. The rules are that I can listen to the book as long as I don’t pull. If I pull, then I have to turn it off for 5 minutes. As long as I go pull free during that time, I can turn it back on. If I do pull, the 5 minutes starts over. As long as it is a good book, it works really well for me. But I haven’t been using this technique except for when I’m in the car, or when I’m reading a book. It doesn’t work so well at the computer, where I need to be working or accomplishing something.
So, since I’m not working, and not driving today, but still working on the computer, I’ve been pulling a lot today. I have a massage in an hour, so I’m hoping that will help. At least for an hour, I know I won’t be pulling. If I’m lucky the relaxation will help too. Then I can think about making dinner or sewing and hopefully keep my hands busy.
I hate these fluctuations though. Even keel would be so much more comfortable, don’t you think?
