Lately I’ve been pulling more, and I can’t really figure out any reason for it. I don’t feel any additional stress, but then I guess that’s nothing new. There rarely seems to be any rhyme or reason to this whole thing.
I really feel lazy all of a sudden about trying to “get any better.” Even putting on a hat just seems like too much of a hassle. It isn’t that I now want to pull or that I no longer want to stop, I just feel like I have no energy to put into the therapeutic process. How can I be gung ho one week and totally lethargic or apathetic the next?
Right now I think I’m just tired and that never helps. I’ve had a couple of nights lately that I’m so tired, I’m practically asleep, and yet I find myself pulling in a weird state of delirium. But as for the rest of it, I don’t know if it is seasonal affect disorder, or if my meds aren’t at a good dose anymore, or what, but I need to find a way to get back on track. Any suggestions?
Don’t give up. Think of this as relapse and withdrawal symptomology. Please try to fight your way through and note what is holding you back from continuing.